Then, last night my daughter wanted to be picked up and carried to bed (she’s 8). I just couldn’t say no (how much longer is she going to be my little girl after all?). So I picked her up and started towards her room.  It didn’t take more than six or eight steps before the pain shot in through my hip, down through my left leg to the calf where it crashed into a numbing throb. I put her down but it was too late.

I thought the sitting might do me some good as it did the night before. It was a little tricky to get into position – I sit in half-lotus – but I soon settled in. After only a few minutes, I just couldn’t sit any longer. Rather than quit, though I just lied down on my side and kept counting breaths. It worked pretty well and I am glad I didn’t quit.

Well, day two and I’m still “sitting”. Even if, last night’s “sitting” was more of a lying down meditation. So far so good.

And on Friday – to the chiropractor.

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We traveled to China to adopt our son. I vainly thought I could maintain my sitting practice, but alas I didn’t even make through the first week of the trip. I beat myself up over this for some time. Doubts about my overall commitment to this practice and this path crept in and here I am several months later still not sitting daily.

I have restarted my practice, though. I will move forward, gently. Gradually building up to a daily hour of meditation. This is, I think a minimum goal for the attainment of some progress.

In July, I will be attending the summer sesshin at ZCLA. It is a week long retreat. At the very least, I don’t want to arrive there so out of shape that I spend the whole time in knots, muscles aching.

Every day.

An end to suffering could be the reason. What is suffering? Why is suffering? Who is it who is suffering? Perhaps the answers to those questions is what I am seeking. Perhaps that is why I do Zazen.

I sense somehow that this is a path I need to be on. I don’t know fully why just yet, but I sense that it is where I need to be going. Sort of like walking down a road in semi-darkness, knowing that the path is familiar without being able to discern the details of the path or clearly see the final destination. You keep going because you know somehow you will round a bend and find that whcih you seek.

Why do you sit?

But that isn’t really the point. Sit every day – except when I forget. I may make it all the way to 100 days. I may not. So far, I haven’t missed a day. Creating the habit of sitting is the point.

Having the goal helps establish that. Whether it be “Commit to Sit” with Tricycle Mag, 100 hours Zazen or some other program at your center or temple, having something to aim for can get us there. Setting a new goal and resetting again and again, can keeps us there.

Just keep coming back to the cushion. Just keep coming back to the breath.

I’m starting to settle into a little – late nights notwithstanding. Just keep pluggin’ along. Bow, sit, get up, keep going.