I just didn’t make it this time. Life got in the way. Of course I let it.
We traveled to China to adopt our son. I vainly thought I could maintain my sitting practice, but alas I didn’t even make through the first week of the trip. I beat myself up over this for some time. Doubts about my overall commitment to this practice and this path crept in and here I am several months later still not sitting daily.
I have restarted my practice, though. I will move forward, gently. Gradually building up to a daily hour of meditation. This is, I think a minimum goal for the attainment of some progress.
In July, I will be attending the summer sesshin at ZCLA. It is a week long retreat. At the very least, I don’t want to arrive there so out of shape that I spend the whole time in knots, muscles aching.